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On Turning Ten

posted Wednesday July 6th, 2011

What better way to start a hot, dusty summer day than with a good poem? Actually, I’m not much of a poetry person. But from time to time I try, and I’ve had my eye on this beauty by Billy Collins for years — waiting for the right time. The time my oldest daughter turns 10.

I’m working on my own poem (well, sort of) for Annabelle’s birthday, which is Sunday. I hope it’s a poem she’ll appreciate at 10 — whereas this poem, one might argue, is better appreciated from several decades away.

So lovely. Check it out.

On Turning Ten
The whole idea of it makes me feel
like I’m coming down with something,
something worse than any stomach ache
or the headaches I get from reading in bad light–
a kind of measles of the spirit,
a mumps of the psyche,
a disfiguring chicken pox of the soul.

You tell me it is too early to be looking back,
but that is because you have forgotten
the perfect simplicity of being one
and the beautiful complexity introduced by two.
But I can lie on my bed and remember every digit.
At four I was an Arabian wizard.
I could make myself invisible
by drinking a glass of milk a certain way.
At seven I was a soldier, at nine a prince.

But now I am mostly at the window
watching the late afternoon light.
Back then it never fell so solemnly
against the side of my tree house,
and my bicycle never leaned against the garage
as it does today,
all the dark blue speed drained out of it.

This is the beginning of sadness, I say to myself,
as I walk through the universe in my sneakers.
It is time to say good-bye to my imaginary friends,
time to turn the first big number.

It seems only yesterday I used to believe
there was nothing under my skin but light.
If you cut me I could shine.
But now when I fall upon the sidewalks of life,
I skin my knees. I bleed.

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3 Responses to “On Turning Ten”

  1. Oh, that last bit is my favorite – “I used to believe … if you cut me I could shine.”

    Birthday blessings to Anabelle.

  2. That’s my favorite part too! …”nothing under my skin but light”. Also, the bike’s “dark blue speed drained out”. I’ll never drive so fast as I rode on my bike as a kid.

    So bittersweet, letting go of all that. Best consoled with a big cake – homemade OR from a mix.

    Happy Birthday Annabelle!

  3. I hope Annabelle had a wonderful time entering into double digits.
    Love,
    Lisa

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